It’s been five months since I posted pics of my newly-dyed blue hair. This has been an absurdly busy season, full of getting settled in our new city and finding all new rhythms. We moved into our own apartment here in Austin after living in nearby Buda with friends for a couple of months. I started grad school, and Jack started preschool. We’ve traveled a bit, and had friends and family visit us here, too. We’ve put down roots with a great church, and Forge Austin recently started this fall’s residency.
The other day, I sat at a stoplight counting the months on my fingers and realized we’ve lived here almost 8 months. The blue has long since washed from my hair, but I am still working hard to be my true self.
This fall that has meant, on more than one occasion, making hard choices to step back and listen to what I need first, which is such a growth area for me. For the past few months, every moment seems to be crammed to the brim with either beauty or struggle, and so some days I’ve been downright melancholy. But today I’m feeling grateful for both–even in the hardest moments, I’m leaning into God’s design in me, and that is so good.
While my family was in town a couple weeks ago, we pooled our dollars and hired the amazing Steven Gunter over at Pearlsnap Photography for a photo shoot. I spent this morning looking through the photos, making lists and trying to decide what to share and what to print. (If he was just a little less amazing, choosing my shortlist would be so much easier, but since these pictures are stunning, so it took me 3 hours to create what I’ve titled my “I might be able to talk Ben into ordering this many prints wish list.”)
Three lovely hours full of joy, during which God whispered to me about the hundreds of tiny things I love about our family, about how far I’ve come in loving His design in me, about how I am not only accepted, but a vital part of something beautiful. Clarity broke in, as if I had planned this morning as a capstone to this season. Suddenly I am certain that those moments where I have been present, bringing my full self into being a mom, wife, daughter, sister—those have been the very best moments of these past few months.
Summer was crazy and this fall I’ve been battling some health stuff, so for the past couple of months, I’ve been resting and thinking and practicing militant self-care. I’ve been still, I’ve even been a little bit frozen in place at times. But today I feel like wellness is coming like shoots through the dirt, and I’m ready. I’m ready to speak again—to write, to blog, to dance, to play.
So, as I considered how to step back into the blog, it seemed best to share some of my favorite moments from our shoot I think the silly shots capture our family pretty well.
Stay tuned–I’ve got lots to share in the weeks to come